Stressing Month and Ef-A Tale of Melodies

As like as other people knows, It's FINAL MONTH for my Semester XD

I am so freaking tired and no mood cos no entertainment for a month and I was stressing like HELL~!!!
But no choice T^T
If I don finish my work I can't pass my Semester T^T
And Hamsap Lou also warn me to finish my work before I can go anywhere...sad sad la *sobs sobs
I WANNA GO LEPAK LA~!!!!!!!!!!!!
By the way guys, I got something to introduce ^^

Ef- A tale of Melodies

The anime once again tells two stories. The first story takes place in the past. Himura Yuu meets a girl, Amamiya Yuuko who seems to know him, but he doesn't know her. However, he soon remembers that she was a girl whom he knew from long ago. Yuuko then tells him something which he never knew. He was her first love since then, and her first love has not ended yet. The second story takes place in the present, just after the events of ef - A Tale of Memories. Shuuichi Kuze meets the cousin of Aso Renji, Hayama Mizuki and spends a lot of time with her. Unknown to Mizuki, Kuze had contracted a fatal illness and has little time left to live. Kuze had decided to break all romantic ties, but things go bad when Mizuki tells him that she loves him.


As I can say thanks to a friend on mine in church that lend me this anime to watch and I found out that this anime have de nicest opening of all and it is wonderful and special. And the story also indeed kinda touching and sad but still wonderful...I recomend you guys out there to watch this anime...^^

Disappointment

I'm disappointed on somethings that happen. So I started to stay aware and be careful towards some people. Some of my friends they didn't notice but I know. Cos I've been hearing stuffs. Unnecessary stuffs that will hurt my friends feeling. Here it is, I have a group of friends and we never ever wanna gossip bout other people. But at outside other than my friends, I heard gossips from them bout my group of friends. Even me myself are included among my besties that I known more than 2 years have been gossiping me behind me. So I was disappointed. How can she do this to me?

Even in my church I was taken as a topic. So I felt that, I wanna stay put at some place where I feel safe. A place that I feel is free from the gossips and stuffs. Even some friends in my school, I think I also will avoid unless is something that is not related to gossip. I don wanna care bout those gossips bout my group of friends already. I'm tired of that.

And I was thinking...eventhough I have some unsatisfaction bout my other friend but I never bad mouth bout her. But I know she said a lot bout me behind me. Then suddenly I feel that this friendship is so fragile. I already tried avoiding her for some time so that we won't argue on something and also can have some topics to talk about. But as time goes by, I feel like I dunno her anymore...

So I'd decided on something...I will inspect and see more and realise more bout de people in my surroundings and my own problem...I don wanna make any mistakes that gonna sabotaj my friendships...

Ohhh Get Out~!!!

I really DON'T understand. Why do this Kids nowadays have problem with someone that didn't even step on their tail? Come on...it is other people's life and why do you care so much? If you're not happy with it...go and FUCK yourself cos it is not even your problem and not even your family member or anyone that is related to you...

You know what? I think you have a boring life there and nothing to do. So you started to pick a fight and say this and that to get attention from some people. Come on...if you wanna get attention, do it nicely cos we are friendly enough unless you're being unreasonable to speak something that is out of your mind...then I have to say sorry cos we won't care on an unreasonable person that tries to pick an unnecessary conversation.

Heart Changing

There are something I am so disappointed and sad...there's changing...something change and I don't like it...I'm becoming sensitive and aggressive towards something that I know there's not even a problem...

Now what I'm most afraid of is...heart. When your heart change, everything in your life change. Including your surroundings and the people beside you. I know changes is good cos you can see and experience new things. Ok I can accept that but there are something I can't accept and I am deeply sad about it and I know sometimes I said something that I didn't mean it to someone but I cant help it. This feeling in me are taking control of my mood. So mostly I try to keep quiet or speak something else...but eventually, I'm not happy. I still put a smile on my face but I'm not happy. I tried so hard to control. Maintain as myself. Not to let anything out.

I need to do something to get this feeling away but I dunno how and I dunno what should I do. I don even know how to express it out. All I can do is sit aside and watch and laugh together. Heart is really so fragile. Something can be break into pieces so easily. Now I'm afraid of alot of things already. I feel like I wanna hide myself away from the outside world again just like before. But now all I can do is wait and see what will happen in the future...

I'm so feakin damn happy and a bit sad in de same time DX

First of all...I wanna congratulate on one of my bestie...Veronica...finally she had found her happiness...so I am so happy for her...but in the same time suddenly I feel lonely...I know that I'm not loosing her but this feelings...I know I think too much so I even tried stop thinking but the feelings...it is here...i ever tried to blank my mind but de feeling in my heart really aches me...it's not that I don wan her to get her happiness but I really x1000000 do felt so happy for her and even bless her...but anyway, I know I'm not loosing her as my friend so I still will continue to stay by her side, tease her with her bf and do many fun stuffs with her...oh yeah, never to forget my other friends Maguro and Magion...I still wanna tease them and have fun with them...hahaha...really wish this can last long T^T


The 5 of us remain as bestie and nice friends just the way we all are...