...+*Fanart of Sakurada Hina Sensei*+...

A little fanart I done from a manga by Sakurada Hina Sensei.... Actually done drew it for more than a year but today just done color it...>..<

Hope you guys enjoy this~


Tools : mechanical Pencil and Photoshop CS3

Hebe - 寂寞寂寞就好

Hi guys I'm back after my previous posting. Recently I am kinda busy with my stuffs so that's why up until now I still haven't update my blog at all but today I got something to share...

I found this wonderful song. Lonely lonely is good. All this time I hate being lonely and this song kinda marked me up. Then I realize, everyone are always lonely. From the lyrics of this wonderful song, it made me felt so touched and the lyrics are actually pointing every of my matters out which I can not expose much.

Falling in love is a pain but yet also a way to grow up. Loved someone who are not ment to be is ok, admit your wrong and continue to walk. Till some where I am sure you will meet someone who are meant to be yours...just don't give up. Yes you can hide yourself for sometime and cry but don't too long. The world still spins and you still need to continue your journey. Don't stop at some where stuck and can't get out.

He is like a drug to you but I am sure you can get rid of this ecstasy. When I am in pain, I hide myself. Just like what they say, a person that have loads of smile like a happy-go-lucky person is actually are those that hide themselves with a smilling mask. Same goes for me. If you see me showing you my happy face, who knows how much I suffered deep within me. It's just that, I don't say it out. I hid it. I hid everything. I hid as much as I could. There's no need to show the world. Including love problems. I do faced a lot already. So it's ok for me to be alone. I don't really mind not having one.

Eventhought i never really actually be in a relationship, but I see a lot, heard a lot and I can feel the pain my friends are feeling. So it's ok if I never been into one. I am still ok all alone. I am still fine and I am still me. At least I can live all by my own.

I am not dreaming. I am sure what is happening. Eventhought sometimes I think and think and think till I'm about to go crazy, its ok and its normal to be that way. Cause this is another way to make myself clear and sane.

Crying is embarrassing but it works. It can actually lift down the burden deep inside. Its ok to cry 1 litre of tears. As long you feel better and better.

Forgive and forget. Love is no one's rights or wrongs.






還是原來那個我 不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會換這張臉 一堆笑容

不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯 早一點解脫

我 寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好

我 寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶里 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
撿來的都該還掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你又改變什麼

再多的愛也沒有 每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼 什麼都沒有 早點看破 才看得見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰 擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到 快瘋掉 死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡 微笑
我就不相信我會笨到 忘不了
賴著 不放掉 人本來就寂寞的
我總會把你戒掉

...+*My Nightmare*+...

My nightmare is back...I thought everything changed after so many years had past. I thought everything will become much and much better but I was wrong. Once again..."they" hunt me back and this time is worse than before...

I rely too much...I relax too much...I believe too much...Now have to be like once again to lock myself away...as far as I can...

Shut everything...run away...hiding at a spot where I can feel safe...

My heart can't take this anymore...I need someone that I can trust...Why can't I find someone like this? Just a trust I wish to have?

Not even the closest person to me I can trust...

Sometimes questions keep on popping up to my mind non-stop... Wanted me to think think and re-think...but I still dunno why and what and who....it's like a non-stop disease keep on spreading inside my head...

I　ｎｅｅｄ　ａ　ｆｏｒｅｖｅｒ－ｐａｉｎｋｉｌｌｅｒ．．．．