What are friends for?

For me, friends are those that will always be by your side no matter what happens to you. They see the flaws of urs and still wants to stay by ur side. They cares for you when you are sad and having a very very weak moment. Staying by ur side, cheering for you and lend you their shoulder to cry on and pat ur head or cries along with you. Comforting and loving you. Helps you when you are in trouble. Finds each other for nothing. Talks about everything and no boundaries.

Everytime when it comes to best friend issues I will cry easily. I am a person that hungers for love and yet, I hunger for friendship more. I treasure friendship more. Family is on my top list and friendship is the 2nd top.

I've been in some friendships but everything always turns out bad. They can't last long. Well consider I don't really being careful in making friends. So I end up getting hurt so damn bad. Till now, this issue comes again. And it is breaking me apart.

Every friendship I knew and saw, I will cry like a big baby. Especially Kokei Teppei with his best friend, Eiji. Their story I always cries. I can see pure friendships for the 1st time in my life and I needed one. I thought I had one but it was ruin. And now happens again. Its really tiring.

I really don't understand what's the best for a friend of mine, Stanley who loves to bad mouth his only best buddy, Alan. His buddy is always being there for him, help him , save him and talks and everything that a best bud would do. But this Stanley was being a loser and a cheapskate. Ok you're stingy I don't care, it's in your character already which your family brought you up as but I don think they will teach you to back stab and create fake stories and rumours bout the people that cares and loved you.

And yes, he done it all. What I hate about guys,

-stingy

-take advantage ( not psychically but on mentally and the greens you have)

-coward

-brainless

-story creator

-spread rumours like a 8 por

-rude and disrespectful

-unreasonable and stupid.

And YES, he has this all. Well no offend to other guys out there but really. Girls really hate to have such guys around. Well maybe some girls love coward guys and I am still ok with this. But this friend of mine he uses his cowardness to cheat on us all so that he can take advantage on us all and this is what I fucking hate it so fucking damn much.

Look Stanley, I respect you before and loved you as a buddy but you fucking ruin everything. So yeah, no goodbyes to you fucker. I am done as a friend to you and I am done being used by you. I don't mind losing a friend like you cause I fucking KNOW what kind of FRIENDS I need in my fucking life. And yeah I know what you'd done behind me. Well FUCK YOU.

Eventhough the whole world turn againts me and I am friendless, I still will not have someone like you in my life. I rather being alone than having someone like you to ruin my life.

My last advice to you Stanley. Today and now whether you can read my post or not, if you still don't stop on what you are doing right now in the future, don't you regret for everything. I believe in karma and I believe this karma will fall either on you or your next generations.

Designers Dilemma

People thinks that a designer is a very low class occupation because it involves in arts. And arts are meaningless in Malaysia because not everyone appreciates arts. And here is the reality of becoming a designer.

People thinks that arts are cheap. Designer doesn't have a bright future. Designer earns very very few. designer doesn't have a life. Designs are useless.

OMG~ This is what the reality hit on me. I chose to be a designer because it is wonderful. Designing for a better life and a better future. From design I can see every little tiny details. I get to learn from a drop of ink till the outside world. Knowing so much wonderful designs all over the world. Even though I took Multimedia Animation and Graphic Design but I am interested with Interior and Architecture Design as well. I am interested with Fashion and Jewelry and Make Ups. I am in love with so much wonderful designs designed by other great and famous and wonderful people all around the world.

I really love design so much. But yet, people who do not know much about design and they tend to humiliate it and doesn't appreciate and even doesn't give a shit about it. Yes I do have people like this around me.

I hate how they think and said about design. They doesn't give respect at all on others career and the wonderful things that designs can be.

Please people. Please respect designs and the designers. Because everyday you are using designated stuffs. Everything around you are designed by great peoples in the past. Cars, houses, clothings, accessories, food and drinks, the road, the lights, furnitures, daily use stuffs like shampoo, toothbrush, towel, and so lot more.

Even the trees, the earth, the water, the air, every living creature and even YOU were designed by God Himself.

You disrespect design then you disrespect everything and even the whole world.

If you do so, then stop using the car, don't live in a house, stop consuming food, go naked, stop using everything and even stop breathing the air. Cause you disrespect it and humiliate it. Stop everything.

Everything in this world is a design. Why can't you accept the beauty in it? Respect and be proud?

I am proud of being someone I wanted to be and happy with it. Even though I am not successful as a designer but I am grateful I got to learn so much from it.

From art I get to see the whole humanity and the world in another perception. From art I get to know more about myself. From art I get to love and appreciate every little things around me.

I don't have to be a doctor or a lawyer or a pilot or any other wealthy career to be proud. (Well even thought the reality in the society does love this people more than artist) But I don't care. I am proud of being an artist or a designer. I am proud of being who I am and what I wanna to be. I will not let the reality and the world to bring me down. I know what I love and I will always make it happen.

Because from art I found my true self. I like what I am when I am doing and loving art. I believe in karma babe. ‎"Keep on criticizing, insulting and judging other people. Someday, someone will do the same to you. Karma do exist dear."

Even though you are having a respectful career or a bright future, it doesn't mean you won't fall in the future. Doesn't mean you will be great, superior or lucky all the time. You will fall someday. It is the matter of time only.

Please have respect for others. You don't want to be treated like a crap or a trash, right?

Just be sensitive and NOTICE it already~

...+*New Artworks*+...

Hi Guys~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been awhile since I post anything here. I miss blogspot for awhile. Haha~

Well anyway here I'm going to post my new artwork. And I was kinda addicted AGAIN to MapleStory so I kinda spend my time in there. I play in Bootes server. ^^

Well here is art of the day~

Enjoy~

Art Contest : Bunny Me

My Prince : Aimez Moi ( Love Me)

I want you

"I love you, but dunno what to do."

And this is how it ends...he kissed her.

I'll be going back to KK soon. Like 29 I will officially leave SDK and stays in KK to get a job and so on. Wish me luck~ ^^

My Freelance and New Art

I am doing some freelance. I do wedding animations, picture animations, comic strip of your life or love life, your personal characters or OC (Original Character), sketches for storyboard, sketching at your request, some graphic designs. If you are interested please feel free to email me to angel_satan88@hotmail.com or you can add me in my FB but remember to tell me your reason of adding.( I have to avoid unnecessary matters) Thank you~

P/S : I am not doing this works for free cause I need income to support my living as well...Thank you once again~ >..<

Gundam~ A friend's request...

KuroHim3 Features : Mutated Eye

This is an art trade with my friend, Maguro and this is her OC, Momo in Sugarism~

This is my OC, KuroHim3 in Sugarism...

Yeah and bla bla bla...

Well what's up guys? It's been awhile and bla bla bla~ (Haha)

Well I'll be going to KK in no time to start my new life within this month. So many bad things happened and I am still holding my heart and stood still to bear with all this pain. It's ok my family doesn't understands my feelings and my circumstances, I still can walk on this earth alone without anyone. (Bhahaha)

I have been doing a massive of deletation in my FB. Some numbers and people just went wrong so I decided to delete them all. (Well only those I do not know) Recently too many "heart attack" happening. Even me myself are facing some high blood pressure and started to faint and with headaches.

Well I don't have much to say now about my emoness but do please and feel free to look up for my artworks...enjoy~