。。。+*变成你们喜欢的我*+。。。

变成你们喜欢的我。。。

因为这个念头， 我曾经迷失了自己。。。
为了讨好你们， 我欺骗了自己。。。
跟你们一起笑， 我穿上笑脸面具。。。
进入你们的世界， 我让我自己变得不是我。。。


就是要跟你们做朋友。。。。。。
我失去了自我。。。。

就是因为这样， 我开始喜欢把自己关在房间里。。。
很喜欢黑暗。。。
很喜欢孤独。。。
很喜欢角落。。。
很喜欢枕头。。。
很喜欢公仔。。。
很喜欢画画。。。
很喜欢看书。。。
很喜欢听歌。。。
很喜欢发梦。。。

慢慢地慢慢地日子就这样子过了。。。
我所看到的。。。
我所听到的。。。
我所明白的。。。
我所感受到的。。。

你们永远也不能够了解。。。。。。
因为我发现到。。。
我身边的人根本不想理解我所看到的。。。
我所明白的。。。
我所感受的。。。
想说出来。。。
但有谁愿意听呢？

就这样我开始不想讲话了。。。
无论我说什么也不会有人想理解。。。
也不会有人要听。。。

我曾经很怕人类。。。
我很怕接近他人。。。
我很怕去多人的地方。。。
我很怕一个人在外面。。。
我很怕一个人吃饭。。。
我很怕跟人对话。。。
我很怕别人的目光。。。

也许现在有所改变了。。。
人也开朗了。。。但是还是不能够好好地表达自己。。。

你们所看到的只是表面。。。
你们有好好的深入地好好了解吗？
你们有为我想下我所遇到的吗？


我已经不想再变成你们喜欢的我了。。。

...+*Graduation Day*+...

17 July 2010 is the day I finally graduate from my college, Sabah Institute of Art aka DETECKE...A very very VERY exciting day but yet also a very sad day for me...but before I say about the rest, there is a small brief I would love to share out...


In this 4 years being stuck in Kota Kinabalu@KK...I experienced so much things, events and people that I met. Lots of mixture feelings that I had from different things and different people...thank you for being there and letting me learn how to grow up more and appreciate those who are there for me...

Veronica, thanx for being there for me for 4 years...we've been best friends ever since the day we met. Everything that we shared and helped will be always in my heart and my mind. Having a friend like you sometimes really can bring up my day with loads of happiness and stupidness...haha...well you just take care of yourself there...I am not by your side anymore so I can't take care of you already...

Suyi, even thought I only know you for 2 years but this 2 years really is a good year to go through with you...thanx for being a good listener and a good adviser...from now on I will try to be myself and be more optimistic...thank you for being there for me~ just become more and more pretty than before...and don't always lose temper on facebook la yar~ a pretty girl shouldn't be so rough...if you need someone to punch, punch ur personal human-sand-bag, Johnny...sure his body itch and need punches...hahaa~

Johnny aka Hamsap Lou, well knowing also not long but really did had a great time with you. Thanx for being such a buddy to me...you're the 1st guy buddy that is truely respect a girl like me for the 1st time...Thank you and do keep up with your artwork...

Irean baby~ for 4 years you had been my "wife" for so long and so good to me and always listen to me and gave me such comfort that I ever wanted...helping me without any hesitation and accompany me to go through my problems...I really love taking care of you and make you laugh cause ur so fun to hang out with and easy to laugh...

Thank you for everything~ And lastly but not least, all other buddies I know, I lost and even make enemies with...haha well yeah I know what kind of person I am so I don't need you to tell me cause what you see is not what I am...duh~ tell you what, thanx to you I learned how to protect myself, I learn how to grow up more and more and I even learned how to deal with the problems you had created to me...well yeah I don't really care what you said about me or whatever it is already...as long I had friends that treat me with more like a friend than you guys treated me the way before...and most important, they trusted me. Well anyway, for 4 years in KK...

Thanx for everything and now I will move forward to my next level. To a new place, new environment, new people and new life...

A special graduation gift from my friends...Thank you guys~ I will love this teddies with all my heart...wow~ I got 5 teddies include the one from the flower and a cute bunny~ hehehehehehe~


Everyone is growing up now...everyone is walking their paths right now...so new and fresh...I'm going to miss everyone...

With all my love and care, I wish you all to have the best of everything...Take care and Good Luck from now on~ Muacks Muacks~ XOXO